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Name: Lena
Location: Texas, United States
Birthday: 1/23/1985
Gender: Female
Interests: M.u.s.i.c,J.a.c.e,S.h.a.f.e.r,
f.r.i.e.n.d.s,m.o.v.i.e.s,A.I.M,W.i.l.l.i.a.m.B.l.a.k.e,
t.h.e.n.i.g.h.t.m.a.r.e.b.e.f.o.r.e.c.h.r.i.s.t.m.a.s.
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Member Since:
7/28/2003
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| So its over. It kinda feels like a big boulder has been lifted from my shoulders. So whats it like to be single with a kid? Its awesome. I love my son so much. Im not gonna start dating or anything anytime soon, I think Im just gonna take a break from all the drama of being in a relationship. Its just been too hard dealing with him and the lies and partying and bullshit. We just dont have that flame like we used to. It went away a long time ago. But that doesnt matter because Sammy is all I need. And Im fine with that.
Im doing just fine without him. | | |
| I cant begin to describe how awesome it is to be a mommy. I love Sam so much and he is so funny! I cant believe how fast time flies.
My relationship....or lack thereof......with Jace is in the shitter. I dont think that its going to work out because obviously there are more important things to him than his son and me. Like going to shows and getting drunk and doing bars. Yeah....Im so fucking over this. I dont need that kind of stress in my life. Im probably better off without him anyway.
Im really not sure why it has to be this way, but its the only way.
Have at him, hes all yours. I have a little man in my life who makes me happier than Ive ever been.
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| Wow, where does the time go? Sam is a month old now and doing just fine. He has a heart murmur..(spelling?) but he should be okay. We have a doctors appointment today. Im nervous because I dont want anything to be wrong with him...but the doctor said that he will be just fine.
Jace and I are.....well....I dunno. Things could be better. Its really hard to see him when we are both working all the time and our schedules suck. I wish that he would stop partying. Things would be a lot better. | | |
| Well its been a week since the big day and Sam will be a week old at 12:27PM. My little love is doing well. Lots of poopy diapars and lots of waking me up 10 times a night, but its all worth it because he is such a joy and brings so much more meaning to my life.
I had my labor induced at 7:45 and I went into labor at 8:15. It was painful up until the epidural, which made things go so much smoother and easier. I pushed for about an hour and then the doctor had to use forceps to get Sam out because he wouldnt go past my pelvic bones because Im so tiny. But all in all it was a fast and easy going delivery. Recovery on the other hand is hell, but Im managing. I miss being able to get out of the house, but I have to stay locked up for at least 3 weeks to recover and I have to keep Sam indoors so his immune system can fully develop....or work or whatever the doctor said, I dont remember. I was pretty drugged up. Anyway, Im doing good. People should stop by and see the baby.
Love, Lena | | |
| I went and got my paycheck today from the last week that I worked, and
it was a lot more than I expected it would be. Big Ups to me. Tomarrow
my dad and I are going to get a pack n play from Wal Mart and set it up
in the nursery. I cant wait till my Sammy boy gets here. Every single
day get so much harder. I just want to see what he looks like so bad,
ya know? Will he look like me, or will he look like his daddy, or will
he resemble the both of us? Im just so anxious. Im so sure that
everyone is sick and tired of hearing about me go on and on about the
baby. Oh well, I want my son here. I want my baby. I dont think I can
explain what it feels like when he is moving around inside of my belly
and I can feel his fists pushing up against my stomach. Its like hes
trying to hold my hand or something. I wonder what his favorite food
will be, or what his first words will be. I wonder who will be the
first person to make him smile, to make him laugh, to make him
cry....there are so many things that i sit here and think about that
keep me awake at night. I am going to have a baby boy in another week
or so. I cant believe it. I mean....wow. A baby in a week or so. I will
be pushing a baby out of me. O@*#$)(*%$()*%^$_)^(+_)$)%^)$*()$*#()
I just cant believe it. I wonder what my mother would say if she were
still here? I wonder if she would be proud of me? Of course she would
be. Will I be a good mother? I wonder what kind of a parent I will be.
*sigh*
I just hope my boy turns out a hell of a lot better than me.
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